I hate school!
I feel like I'm never going to be done with school! I feel like a loser sometimes that I'm still in school while others have graduated or they are really close to doing so. I know my situation is different from other peoples but I can't help but get down on myself for it.
When I went to college, no one really helped me on how to do so. I picked going to MSJC because it was cheaper & I thought I'd go into the Nursing program at the time. I did all my general ed classes (I found out later that my first year in college won't really count for anything because my councler just gave me a bunch of bogus classes...depressing right) & I ended up a year behind some people.
Then I decided, Nursing isn't for me so I decided to go into ultra sound tech program (diagnostic medical sonography or DMS) at MSJC. Before I can get into those classes I have 5 prerequisits to finish:
-Math 90
-Communications 101
-Physics 100
-Human Anatomy 101
-Human Anatomy 102
Last semester I completed & passed Math 90 & Communications. This semester I'm only in Physics 100 because of the budget cuts at the school, I could not get into Human Anatomy 101 (totally over crowded) & so I have to finish those as well.
I know I have worked full time & gone to school full time pretty much the entire time I have been in college, but I still feel down on myself for not being done yet. I wish I was in my career now, but I feel like I have had nothing but road blocks the entire time.
Now I am pregnant & I know some people will think I am not going to finish school because I'll have a baby. I'm going to do it, whatever it takes, especially for her. I feel like now I have even more motivation to get thru schooling so I can provide a better life for her.
I just need to remember to be positive & stop calling myself a loser, but I feel like one a lot & I know thats not right but...its hard. I want to be done with school & it is taking me forever!
Sam I can totally relate to you about feeling down and out for not finishing school like some other people our age. Me and you are both 22 and stuck in school because of our situations and changing our minds about our careers. I wanted to write this comment because it took me a long time to realize no one else matters but you!! All of those people I know who have bachelors degrees cant even find jobs and some have decided not even to go with their field. I even know some people who have masters degrees who still work at a pizza place!! We have a whole lifetime to live learn and love and though you are not done with school like some of my other friends you are the most inspirational person to me even though weve never even met!!! You've been through a lot and have more life experience than most who have simply just finished school. I will probably not be done with school until I'm 26 or 27 and that perfectly okay....and for you to finish at ANY age would be perfectly okay as well! anatomy is HARD let me know if you ever need help when you start it. You are going to be a GREAT mom and I know your a beautiful person who always strives to be better. Thanks for inviting me to read your blog I love it!!
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