Holy crap! In about 7 to 10 weeks I will officially be a Mom!
Am I scared? Hell yes! Am I excited? Hell yes!
Just this weekend I got to go visit my friends the Lawlers (I love you guys!) & Ashley just gave birth to her 3rd child, Brooklyn Grace, & I got to meet her & it really just made all of this so real!
I held Joe's little cousin Kalia when she was just 2 hours old, but I wasn't close to being a Mom. It was amazing, but it also didn't make me go, "Holy crap!"
Holding Brooklyn, I just kept thinking that in a matter of weeks I will be holding a teeny tiny little baby that Joe & I made. She will be ours. All ours. I'm so excited & also scared in a lot of ways too. I don't want to mess up, I don't want to do wrong by her. I'm responsible for her & the woman she will eventually grow up to be. I'm scared & excited...but I don't know what emotion is taking over me the most. I think it is pretty equal at this point.
All I ever wanted in life was to be a great Mom & a great Wife. I can't really answer if I'm a great Wife (ask Joe) but I strive for greatness & I'm going to continue to strive for greatness in my Mommy duties. I just want this little girl to know she is loved by me & Joe more than anything & we are always here for her & we will just do our best to guide her down the right path in life.
I'm praying a lot more these days. I keep praying she comes out healthy & happy & I think the rest will fall into place. Everyone says that I will just KNOW how to be a Mom when she gets here...I hope they are all right!
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