Stress :-(

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

That is something I have to keep reminding myself daily it seems. I get mad at that expression sometimes, especially now because I can't really SEE what that reason is yet. But I have to know that deep down inside, that reason will sprout up & I will go "Oh ok...I get it." But until that day, I am pretty frustrated.

Things have changed pretty rapidly for us. I just know that at some point I am going to look back & wonder why I was ever worried or stressed in the first place. I hope that day comes soon. I am tired of not being able to shut off my mind for a few hours so I can sleep. Ever get like that? Your mind is just going & going & you can't shut it off long enough to relax or even sleep. I hate it. Thats how I have been lately & its starting to wear me down.

Joe & my future baby are my constant reminders of what is most important in life. I know that & I love them for it. But I still can't shake the stress or the worry sometimes. I want to be able to for them so I can do better for them & not be this insane, stressed out mess. Its not good for Kiana either. She doesn't deserve it. I hope she doesn't end up like me in this sense. I want her to be more carefree like her Daddy, thats for sure.