On Saturday (March 6th) I'll be exactly 6 months pregnant!
YAAAAY :-D
I have a doctor's appointment today & let me just say...I'm a paranoid mess!
The week I have a doctor's appointment, I'm always freaking out! I have a hard time sleeping, I over think everything...I'm just scared out of my mind. Then after the appointment, I feel good for about 3 weeks until that next appointment gets closer to being here.
I'm constantly scared something is going to happen. I'm always worried I'm going to go to my appointment & not hear her heart beat or find out something is wrong with her. I'm just in constant fear for her life & well being.
It probably doesn't help much that I'm always reading online & different books about pregnancy & all the bad things that can happen & other women stories about their loss & everything scares me! I don't want to do the wrong thing that affects her health or...makes me loose her.
Me & Joe are already so in love with her & we have always wanted to be parents & now we have this little Angel growing inside me, I couldn't bare it if something were to happen to her. I keep telling myself it will be easier when she is born & I know she is here & ok. But I doubt that. I keep reading about a bunch of other things you have to worry about when they are born. I'm just going to be a paranoid mess for the rest of my life!
I keep praying that God just gets my baby girl in this world safely & praying that He give me the strength to calm down & just know its all in His hands. I'm trying, but maybe I should pray a bit harder because I just can't relax. I love her so much & I just want her here & safely & healthy :-)
I have a doctor's appointment today & let me just say...I'm a paranoid mess!
The week I have a doctor's appointment, I'm always freaking out! I have a hard time sleeping, I over think everything...I'm just scared out of my mind. Then after the appointment, I feel good for about 3 weeks until that next appointment gets closer to being here.
I'm constantly scared something is going to happen. I'm always worried I'm going to go to my appointment & not hear her heart beat or find out something is wrong with her. I'm just in constant fear for her life & well being.
It probably doesn't help much that I'm always reading online & different books about pregnancy & all the bad things that can happen & other women stories about their loss & everything scares me! I don't want to do the wrong thing that affects her health or...makes me loose her.
Me & Joe are already so in love with her & we have always wanted to be parents & now we have this little Angel growing inside me, I couldn't bare it if something were to happen to her. I keep telling myself it will be easier when she is born & I know she is here & ok. But I doubt that. I keep reading about a bunch of other things you have to worry about when they are born. I'm just going to be a paranoid mess for the rest of my life!
I keep praying that God just gets my baby girl in this world safely & praying that He give me the strength to calm down & just know its all in His hands. I'm trying, but maybe I should pray a bit harder because I just can't relax. I love her so much & I just want her here & safely & healthy :-)
