KIANA JO IS CRAWLING....BACKWARDS! LOL!

Yes it is true. Kiana Jo will be 7 months on the 30th & she is crawling...backwards! Hahaha! Its so funny to watch because she is trying really, really, really hard to go forward but she just isn't there yet. She gets mad at herself of course & starts growling & grunting but she is very determined. I'm sure in a matter of days she will be going forward & when she does WATCH OUT!

I'm excited for her of course because its a milestone in her life, but I get sad too because it just means she is growing up. I can't get over just how fast she is growing. It is so true what ALL parents say, "they grow up way too fast" & it makes me sad & I'll start to cry here & there. I know I am a baby but I just wish my baby girl would stay a baby forever!

Ready or Not...Here Comes 2011

Wow...I really suck at blogging I guess.

So much in my life has changed this year & because there has been so much going on, I really haven't had time to even blog. I guess I want to be better at this, so hopefully in 2011 I can get it together & at least blog once a week. I can make time for that!

I'm really, really, really ready for the new year & all the exciting adventures it could possibly bring! But I have to say thanks to 2010 for definately being the best year of my life & for all the good & bad & even crazy things it did to me!

A New Chapter

I'm starting a new little chapter in my life. I quit my old job I had before going on maternity leave & I' now going to be working at a bank which makes me so happy! I'm still in school, finishing up my AA & hopefully getting into the ultra sound tech program. I have a lot going on & I am excited & nervous!

My main goal in my life is to have Kiana & Joe & the rest of my family proud of me. Sometimes I am not sure if I am doing just that & I hope as of now that I am. I also want to make sure I am happy with myself & the person I am & that I am becoming & as of right now...I feel really, really, really good about myself :-)

After having Kiana, I didn't feel like me. Not in a bad way, I definately felt more grown up & I felt like a Mom right away. I became a new a me, a new me that I loved more than the old me. I feel more comfortable with myself especially my body which is weird because its waaay different then it was before Kiana. But I feel like I finally came into myself when I had her. My whole world changed & definately for the better. I have a whole new outlook on life & what I expect of people. I used to judge people on how they treated me, but now I base it on how they treat my daughter. If someone doesn't treat my daughter kindly or like the little angel she is...why do I need them in my life? She is my life! She is everything to me! So if someone can't appreciate her for that, then I don't need them in mine. I don't feel that this makes me stuck up or mean, I feel like I have my priorities straight because she comes first above all else.

I love my life! Even though there are some struggles I am going thru at the moment...at least I see a light at the end of the tunnel & I know that it will not be like this forever. I am comfortable with myself. I feel like I am good Mom & a good Wife & I hope a good Daughter & Friend as well. I am ready for these changes & everything life is about to throw my way...so bring it on!

3 MONTHS ALREADY?!

I can't believe my baby girl is going to be 3 months on September 30th! This is insane! I am really sad because I guess this means she is officially not a newborn :-( She just started growing out of most of her newborn clothes last week. She can still wear most of them, but some of them not so much. She is now mostly in the 0-3 months clothes. Isn't she just precious!

As of now she is baby talking like crazy! She has been since she was 4 or 5 weeks old, but now it is louder & she does it in response of us talking to her. She also tries really, really hard to mimic what we do with our mouths which is fun to watch, she is actually pretty good. Tummy time is going great, she holds her head up pretty good now, still has a ways to go though of course. She is also still breast feeding (is that TMI?) & my goal was to make it to 6 months so we will see how that goes.

I still can't believe that 12 weeks ago, this little girl was in my belly...it just amazes me! I love her so much & so does her Daddy! We are very, very blessed with this little angel in our lives!

HAPPY 3 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

On August 25th 2010, marked 3 years that Joe & I vowed to spend the rest of our lives together :-) It was actually the first anniversary he had been home for! Our 1st one he was deployed, but came home 2 weeks later so we stayed at Disneyland for the weekend. The 2nd one he was deployed & came home a month later & this one he was actually home for! So on Friday, Gammy & Bumpa (my parents) babysat Miss Kiana while we had a lovely little date night! We went to dinner to one of our favorite restaraunts Lucille's, which was amazing! We had fun talking about the old times & what we thought when we first met & first started dating...lots of fun! Then we went to the movies & saw 'The Expendables' which was really good actually. Then we went home & picked up our little angel that we missed sooooo much. It wasn't anything grand or exciting, but it was a lot of fun & it was nice actually being together for our anniversary! Here is to a million more to celebrate together :-) I love you Joe!

Loving The Mommy Life :-)

I am so in love with my daughter! I can't get enough of her! Just looking at her makes me so happy! She is seriously the most beautiful thing I have ever laid my eyes on! Every day she does something new to make me smile & laugh. I love watching her grow, but at the same time I wish I could stop time & she can just stay 7 weeks old. Its bitter sweet watching her grow. You just want her to stay little forever, but its amazing that she is so healthy & growing so well. She already makes me so proud!

Luckily get 6 more weeks off paid so by the time that is up she will be 3 months old. I still won't be ok leaving her, but I have to go make money for her. LOL! But I am in school & I finally got in the Human Anatomy 101 class I needed, so I'm leaving her 2 days a week with my Dad for the 4 hours I'm in class. I cry every time I drop her off. I know she is in great hands, but I just hate leaving her. In class I look at her pictures & just miss her. I call my Dad every time we have a break to make sure she is ok & she always is of course because she is a perfect baby.

I'm so happy Kiana is all mine! I can't imagine this life without her now & I even wonder how did I ever live without her before?! I didn't even know what happiness was til she came in my life! I can tell Joe feels the same way! He works really, really long & hard hours on the ship & its not a really fun job. He'll call me to let me know he is on his way home & I can tell he is in a bad mood. But as soon as he walks in & sees this gorgeous face of hers, he melts & he is instantly happy.

The both of us also don't worry about the small stuff anymore. We aren't concerned with having the best of the best or going out every weekend or seeing every movie that comes out. We are just happy to be spending our time with our little family. She is just everything to us & I can't thank God enough for bringing her in our lives.

FINALLY! I SAW ECLIPSE!

So last Sunday I was brave enough to leave Kiana for about 2 hours to go see ECLIPSE with my Mom. Holy crap it was freaking AMAZING! I loved the book so I expected great things for the movie & it did not disappoint! Of course I was just so happy because I freaking loooove Taylor Lautner/Jacob Black. (But I thought there could have been some more shirtless scenes with him...but thats just me) I think the movie was great! Of course the books are still better, but the movie was awesome. 

I was also proud of myself for leaving Kiana. Joe had duty so she stayed with my Dad & brother & she did great. She was only fussy for a little bit they said but then they calmed her down. I better get used to leaving her because I will be back at work soon but its too hard. I get sick to my stomach just thinking about it!